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Updated Jan 18, 2020, at 01:30

My Other Half

by Marivel Guzman

Where were you, Love?
I knew you’d come!
I heard your little soft steps,
I felt your fairy wings
dancing to the tune of my breathless hope
I sensed you getting ready for the dance of love

On the sparkles of the rain,
I saw your mist curling in.
I know It was you, who touched my shoulder
When I felt all broken down.
I knew you’d come, It is you,
who saved me from the darkest dream.

Where were you, Love?
I smell the aroma of your shadow
Breathing always next to me.
I knew you’d be,
courting my silhouette
inhaling every drop of my sleep.

Where were you, Love?
I needed your warm presence next to me,
I wanted to hear the whispers of your voice.
I missed your presence in my life.
I tried to forge in another hope,
I tried to call in other names,
but love is not a costume dress, that I can change.

Where were you, Love?
I needed you to come tonight.
The piercing shout of my pain
will keep me awake if you don’t come,
your absence cut right through my soul.

Where are you Love?
I need to embrace your name again,
I want to snuggle up again,
against your heart next to mine.

I knew you come,
I know you missed my voice touching your ear.
I know your life is half without my touch,
I knew you’d come,
I’m feeling warm again tonight. ♥

Love is not love,
if it does not have its other half.

First Published on Oct 5, 2012, at 20:14

Marivel R Guzman © 2012

Akashma Poetry

Marivel Guzman, is an American poet, and fiction writer.
(photo and graphics by Marivel Guzman)

Categories: News

The modern Tesla, Elon Musk the genius


By Marivel Guzman

Elon Musk is a genius innovator, a unique mind entrepreneur and along with that an extreme risk-taker, who does not take a NO! As an answer.

Musk feels, he is running out of time. He feels the humanity itself is running out of time. Musk wants to put in place the infrastructures for a fully automatic, electric solar-powered earth. And, in order to do that, he needs to control the companies that he started. Only under his lead, those companies will achieve his dream.

After listening to all of Musk’s lectures and interviews I got to the conclusion that Musk is a man of many ideas, who likes to take risks on the spot, but I believe he sees the investor as a nuisance in his way for innovation.

Investors want to secure their investments with minimum risks. Musk for the contrary has the insights of a genius. He believes in himself and his genius about it. He has the idea in his head, and he is sure, he can develop that idea. Pretty much like Nikolas Tesla used to think.

Besides that, he took the oil companies by the horns. And as if that wasn’t enough, he gave the old obsolete NASA few lessons in innovation and recycling of materials.

 

The electric car was a dream of Nikolas Tesla, but mainstream science never credited with the invention. The most commonly reported Tesla electric car was a converted Pierce-Arrow, from 1931. A version of the account of Tesla’s car is in the book Secrets of Cold War Technology – Project HAARP and Beyond, by Gerry Vassilatos.

It is common sense that J. P. Morgan who at the time was

Musk fought the same demons Tesla did in its time. The devil investors, the for-profit Thomas Edison, and the greed of J P. Morgan

Musk finds himself at crossroads with his conciseness. He sees himself as a modern Tesla, but with money where if he left alone to develop his ideas, he can do wonders for this world.

The DOJ and Securities Exchanges should leave Musk alone to continue with his efforts to save humanity.

Tesla Inc. is under investigation by the Justice Department over public statements made by the company and Chief Executive Officer Elon Musk, according to two people familiar with the matter. The criminal probe is running alongside a previously reported civil inquiry by securities regulators.” Bloomberg.com

Solar City, Tesla, and Space X are three companies with a genius behind who wants the betterment of humanity, with this, I leave you with the iconic Tesla’s idea of science.

“Science is a perversion of itself unless it has as its ultimate goal the betterment of humanity,” Nikolas Tesla

Categories: Column

The truth told should not be taken as insult!


By Marivel Guzman

Palestinian medics evacuating an injured protester during clashes with Israeli security forces near the border with Israel, east of Khan Yunis, last year.
(Credit Adel Hana/Associated Press)

The truth told, should not be taken as insult!
Voices are usually silenced, when it comes to Israel.

Very often, we see public figures and government officials including members of Congress to receive a backlash of “angry voices” claiming that any statement make in regard of Israel, if isn’t favorable, then is antisemitism.

On July 12, four days after the latest war in Gaza began, hundreds of Israelis gathered in central Tel Aviv to protest the killing of civilians on both sides and call for an end to the siege of Gaza and the Israeli occupation of the West Bank. The New York Time

In my opinion, the tragedy of WWII is an open wound for Palestinians, who still carry on their backs the horrific events that took place in Europe.

Before and after the end of the war, their destiny [Palestinians] was marked by the partition of their land.

The Jewish people, who emigrated to Palestine by force or by their own will, found safe heaven there, as Congresswoman Rashida Tlaib said, during a Yahoo News podcast “Skullduggery.”

71 years later, Palestinians are suffering persecution, oppression, occupation, incarceration and a slow ethnic cleansing.

For Palestinians, the Holocaust is not a painful memory, but a crude reality.

Israel converted Palestine into a pastrami sandwich.

“What is to become of the Palestinians?” Churchill asked. “We’ll make a pastrami sandwich of them,” Ariel Sharon said.

Winston Churchill III recalled his 1973 encounter with Sharon during a National Press Club

By Sharon’s statement, it is obvious the plan to install settlements-Settlements are illegal under International Law, was to take more land, and to uproot more Palestinians.

#humanrights #occupation #Holocaust #Palestine

Moon Landing 50th anniversary


By Marivel Guzman

 

School children in a photo opt at the Richard Nixon Library, Fullerton, Cali. April 29, 2019. (Photo/Marivel Guzman)

Richard Nixon Library and Museum’s lobby, at the Moon, landing 50th-anniversary ceremony. photo/Marivel Guzman

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The Richard Nixon Presidential Library and Museum is celebrating the 50th anniversary of many “things,” including the Moon Landing.

Today the City of Fullerton in partnership with the Richard Nixon Library put together the Moon Landing 50th anniversary exhibits.

One of the perks to be a journalist, I got to visit the exhibits for free- It cost $17 for adults and $11 for children, free for children on a school field trip. In preparation for today’s ceremony, many local schools children attended the library to celebrate today’s historic day.

The library has very interesting exhibits related to the 60s, including the Vietnam War, the 1963 Birmingham riots, the Tet Offensive (1968) between other events from the 60s.

The Library still has the original home, where Richard Nixon born, with its rose garden.

Also, it holds part of the National Archives with 46 million pages of textual records, 3,431 hours of White House tapes, 418,000 photographs, 5,175 hours of video recording available for researchers.

Enjoy the tour! ❤
#MoonLanding #Apollo11 #SaturnIV #RichardNixonExhibits #50thAnniversaryMoon

 

Categories: News

And the band played on–Book Review


And the Band Played on

By Randy Shilts (1987)

Book Review

By Marivel Guzman

 

And the Band Played On, cover book by Randy Shilts

The beginning of the AIDS epidemics creates a blurred line in the history of the United States, nobody, that could have done something to stop the spread of the epidemic did anything of substance, except for their relatively small almost intrusive hand in the political game of the times.

Scientists and the first victims of AIDS will be exonerated by history. The gay community was scared, uninformed and was caught out of the guard, and the scientific community was left to their fortunes to try to stop the disease from disseminating.

I was in nursing school back in 1977 all the way to 1981. In those years the word AIDS did not exist in the pathology book we have to memorize to pass the class. Cancer in those days, it was a new disease being researched, but already making inroads in the life of Mexican women in hospital wards of Mexico.

Acquired Immunodeficiency Syndrome is the name given to the disease, a shorter and less scary name for a Syndrome that will definitely kill anybody with the virus, which by 1980 was killing ‘gays people’ without having been properly known.

The scientific community of the US and France were in a battle for recognition, both nations top scientific did not really know what they were confronted with.

Shilts 657 pages The Band Played On book indeed did a good job into chronologically recording the juiciest aspects of the gay community with their “bathhouses” and their organizations.

Randy Shilts makes 273 references to Bathhouses all throughout the book and The “Blood-industry,” is repeated only 41 times, blood transfusion(s) is brought out only 67 times, but none of those mentions makes the blood industry to come clean for partaking in the spread of the HIV.

Presently a person with AIDS’s life expectancy is about 78, with medical treatment.

Coincidentally I did my one-year clinical practice in Mocorito, Sinaloa, Mex., which it was known as the town of the gays.

I was the head nurse of the rural hospital in Mocorito Health Center, I do not remember to see troves of gays with Kaposi sarcoma, actually, I do not have any recollection to see cancer cases at all. I do remember, we were running a program to eradicate Tuberculosis and Hepatitis, and for a town with so many gay people, it is strange not having a memory of AIDS cases.

In June 1981, the CDC published a report of five gay men from Los Angeles, Ca., who contracted a life-threatening disease, PCP pneumonia, which was never seen on people with an intact immune system. Also, in July of the same year, published the cases of a rare type of skin cancer that kills young gay people with AIDS, Kaposi’s sarcoma.

I appreciate the dignified pity Shilts dedicated to the gay community victims of AIDS, but I reproach the way he brushes off the blood industry for the spreading of AIDS. Stanford University, the biggest supplier of blood is the main responsible for the spread of the AIDS virus. The scientific community of United States has its big share of guilt, as well of Congress and the federal government.

By the way, Shilts makes so many references of the “bathhouses” all throughout the book, makes me believe he blames the bathhouses for the spreading of the disease.  Shilts makes 201 references to Bathhouses and 72 references to “bathhouse.” This insistence on focusing so many chapters to the gay community as the culprits of the sin of AIDS is unfair.

AIDS being a new disease taking everyone by surprise should have put the media in a state of alert, but also, they fail to give the AIDS epidemic the attention it required.

The earliest press releases by the CDC confirmed that they were already taking measure to tackle the disease, but Reagan did not have any hurry in “tarnishing” his image with the epidemic. Shilts does not make a great effort to call onto the Reagan administration, or Congress into doing more allocating bigger budget for the investigation and treatment of the disease that it was costing so many lives.

I have to give him credit for taking such paramount job into writing the story of so many known guys affected by the disease in its earliest stages. He does fail to do more investigative reporting in other cities, he concentrated his stories in Los Angeles, Miami, and New York, and by lack of imagination, he did not wonder in other towns and cities hospitals.

As an RN nurse and with knowledge of infectious diseases, I know that a disease such as AIDS, it wouldn’t have city lines.

Coincidentally as I write this review, I found a recent article in the New York Times, a self-conscience judgment.

“The New York Times had a spotty record of covering the AIDS epidemic in the early 1980s — and gay culture in general. Times staffers reflect on the paper’s past, and what we can learn from it today.” The New York Times, April 28, 2018.

Shilts makes few allusions to the press of the time, their passivity to cover more aggressively the first instances of the epidemic. That could have been a game changer. If the news were doing their job, perhaps, the Reagan Administration could have done more, perhaps Congress could have made the blood industry to stop cold from distributing “one more once of blood.”

“If AIDS is indeed sexually transmitted, why have there been so few cases?” If scientists were doing the math, they should have known that gays right groups were correct to ask this question. Shilts isn’t preoccupied with investigating the stats of gays affected with the immune syndrome.

I’m very critical of this book narrative, which focuses, it is more emphasizing that gays are the vehicle of the agent of AIDS, rather than shifting the blame to the blood transfusions.

By mid-1982, Dr. Edgar Engleman, Stanford’s immunologist for the blood bank, had already figured out, that the disease could be spread in blood transfusions as well, “By early 1983, three AIDS cases were lying in Stanford University Hospital wards; for all three, their only “risk behavior” was having a blood transfusion in San Francisco,” Shilts said.

This statement was a good “scientific clue,” that blood transfusion should have been halt until further investigation on the cause of the virus was found. Why keep pounding on the idea that AIDS is spread through “Bathhouses.”?

I can understand that Shitls being gay wanted to highlight the life of the gay community in those bathhouses, perhaps, Shilts, the intent was to normalize the idea that gays are human beings like every other individual in American society. At one point on the narration, Shilts relates the funeral of a gay victim of AIDS, where the mother of disease asked the lover out of the service. I only can try to analyze Shilts’s intentions by making gays’ sufferings to resonate with American society.

If Shilts meant to write the tragedy of the gay community from LA, Miami, and NY, he nailed the story, but to have written this 657-page book as a chronological recorder of the evolution of the disease in American gay’s communities, it just does not add up. By the time he wrote “And the Band Played on,” there was plenty of scientific evidence that AIDS was not an only gay disease.

Yes, I agree that he incorporated the political climate of those years and it played perfectly well with his stories of gays sentenced to death. Another scoring point for Shilts is his liberal and literal use of the “word anal.” He feels that is entitled to say what he enjoys as a gay man without having to explain further. Kudos to him on this.

Shilts missed the opportunity to expose the government coverup—an epidemic spreading like wildfire, and the federal government isn’t declaring an emergency, it isn’t allocating millions of dollars for research.  As a journalist and a gay person, Shilts missed the focal point of the spreading of AIDS.

Multi-Center AIDS Cohort Studies by 1982, had already guarantee grant money for research, no mention of that in Shilts’s book.

According to Shilts, The Department of Public Health still had not produced one piece of informational literature on AIDS, he said. But, public records show that the CDC has already published a press release advising the scientific community of the epidemic.

The CDC is the main actor in Shilts’s book, he mentioned the CDS 564 times all through the book, for a 567 pages book, the mentions are a little bit exaggerated. In all credit to the CDS, by June 1981, it has already published a press release, and by May of the same year the MMRW (Morbidity and Mortality Weekly Report by the CDC have already confirmed 5 cases of Pneumocystis carinii pneumonia (PCP) among previously healthy young men in Los Angeles (1). All of the men were described as “homosexuals”; two had died. Local clinicians and the Epidemic Intelligence Service (EIS) Officer stationed at the Los Angeles County Department of Public Health, prepared the report and submitted it for MMWR publication in early May 1981.

As an RN, I find the book to lack the scientific sources, to be considered a “breakthrough” literature on AIDS.

If you want to learn about the beginning of AIDS, Inventing the AIDS Virus by Peter H. Duesberg, professor of molecular and cell biology at the University of California at Berkeley, and a pioneer in retrovirus research. His book it is a great read with peer journal references to his studies and an outstanding credible researcher, which articles have appeared in several scientific journals.

Shilts’s The Band Played On, it is a good book, which brings the human side of gays and as a gay journalist, he dared to expose the hypocrisy in politics and the little care they have for the wellbeing of Americans.

AIDS took the lives of hundreds of thousands of innocent people. In the beginning, the “Blood Industry,” which is a multi-billion dollar business refused to throw away their existing batches of blood in their banks.

Even if it was not thoroughly investigated, thousands of patients got infected through blood transfusions.

The blood industry is as guilty as the US government from the AIDS epidemic.

“And the Band Played on” by Randy Shilts (1987) explores thoroughly the beginning of AIDS in the US.

 

 

 

Categories: News

UNRWA free of United States interference


By Marivel Guzman

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Last week the White House stopped its funding to UNRWA, the agencyiin charge of supporting and protecting Palestinians refugees.

At this point is expected that it will continue its mission through personal donations. According to uts official page, UNRWA also receives funding from the European Union and partner organizations.

Skipping the middle man! This could be the best opportunity to sideline the US government, which have been the main obstacle for peace in Palestine—The US Congress also is to blame having funded the Israeli’s military with billions of dollars. This funding have emboldened Israel.

At this moment the future of UNRWA US is unsure. I share their page, but I’m skeptical if the funds can be delivered directly to the occupied territories without official channels. Also taking in consideration that Israel receives the money before is handled to the Palestinian Authority.

UNRWA is a non-profit, that functions as a direct dependent of the UN, which was funded in the same year the agency was funded–In 1949 UNRWA was created with the sole purpose to assist and protect Palestinians dispossessed of their lands, homes and livehood after the partition.

At this point we don’t know what is going to happen to UNRWA. It is true several countries and private organizations also help in its funding, but we need to hear more information from the WH regarding its standing regarding UNRWA—Will the WH allow UNRWA to function without government interference?

“WE PROVIDE ASSISTANCE AND PROTECTION FOR
SOME 5 MILLION PALESTINER EFUGEES,” UNRWA official page

UNRWA Facebook page

 

SacState Run Fun for Palestine


by Marivel Guzman

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Marivel Guzman, at California State University, Sacramento, The Well Fun Run race. I’m running for my team “Running for Freedom,” on April 19, 2018, Sacramento, Calif. (Photo/Cintia Lopez)

Hello family, friends, and brothers and sisters in humanity. This is one of the essays for my Recreation, Parks and Tourism Administration class. RPTA 100 is an upper division class I took to complement the 120 units requirements to graduate. To pass the class, we have to create two major discovery events of leisure and recreation, that serve us in all aspects of our psychological and physiological needs.

By the time, I enrolled for the race, I have done my two main discovery events, but I could do it for some extra credit (5 points), not bad if you consider that 5 points could be the difference between getting a BA or not.

Everybody that is close to me knows, that I started my journalism career, as a way to serve the Palestinian cause.

“I’m studying journalism to be a better peace activist, to be a better writer for the cause of justice,”Akashma

I know my shortcoming with the English language. English is not my native language. I have struggled for years to master the art of writing a good essay, or even a good article without having to resorts to a grammar edition software, which is probably used by every English book writer, and every accomplished journalist.

This small essay is a simple example of how everything I do in my assignments as a student at Sac State is turned into an activist piece for Palestine.

In the past, I tried to merge my identity as a peace activist and my journalistic career, but it did not come too well. In college, my writings were not published and here at the university, my audacity got me in problems with the then editor in chief of the Hornet, Sacramento State’s student newspaper.

According to my adviser, the and EIC  of the Hornet, me, as a student journalist I cannot write for my the newspaper on issues of Palestine, the newspaper alleges Bias, and conflict of interest because I’m peace activist. I alleged that I’m peace activist, and because of it, I know about the issues played on in society, but also, I argued that me, I’m a professional journalist, who will cover events and report on the merits of the event, really in all conscience, I cannot lose my identity as a human being. I must continue what I feel is right. Is being biased for truth and justice is a conflict of interest, then so be it.

I have found other ways to serve my biased cause of justice: Here is one simple example, not for a journalist class but, this essay gets to be published in the wires.

Race results 

Without further due; The Essay 5k Fun Run Running for Palestine 5K Fun Run

Short video of the last few seconds of the race

 

 

 

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